My sister-in-law called and I was unable to get out of having breakfast with her, my brother, and my two nieces. I really, really, really don't want to go. Really. It's not that I dislike them, it's just that I can think of at least 1,343, 583, 390,470 other things I'd rather be doing instead. Like #1 SLEEP.
And meeting with them (or anyone from my childhood) taps into a well of self-loathing that I'd rather not explore. I don't want to have to explain (and therefore examine) my life again.
And I'm bloody tired.
I'm not enough, and I know that.
I hate coming to terms with that every time someone from home calls.