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Wow. It's been a really long weekend with lots of things to tell and yet, I've no energy to compose the tale.
Alas.

All I can say is that I feel terrible (I wrecked my back by sleeping on D's crappy bed and binged all day in ways that I'm too ashamed to post here).
I'm also a little apprehensive. D and I had a long intimate talk last night and we're at a crossroads. If we continue on our current path, I can see us married in less than a year---yes really. If we back off, we leave one another's lives forever. It's getting serious again and that scares the holy hell out of me.

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[Spell your first name back wards]: ardnassaC
[The story behind your LJ user name]: See multitudes of other quizzes.
[Are you a lesbian?]: Nope, not even a little bit (Hear that Mom?!?)
[How old?]: 26
[Where do you live?]: Northern California
[4 words that sum you up]: Fiesty, Opinionated, Kind, Incomplete
[Hairbrush]: This is a stupid, stupid question.
[Jewelry worn daily]: Nothing...I hate the feeling of jewelry on my skin.
[Pillow cover]: Right now? Cowboys and Indians Flannel
[Coffee cup]: Big, brown, has "Bill" written on the front of it. It used to be my grandfather's and it's one of the only things I wanted when he died.
[Underwear]: Cheap, cheap, cheap. Jockey 6 for 6 bucks package. I've found that the right man doesn't care what you're wearing so long as you're willing to get out of it.
[Shoes]: :( Sneakers...usually Nike. I've got a bum foot, so it's not by choice.
[Favorite top]: Peasant blouses.
[Favorite pants]: Jeans.
[Cologne/Perfume]: Night Flowering Jasmine or Vanilla Oil from the Body Shop.
[CD in stereo right now]:The CD from Paste Magazine...
[Piercings]: none.. Two, one hole for each ear and I've let them both close up. I'm sad that I ever got them.
[What you are wearing now]: Cheap underwear and a F*&K Nebraska football shirt.
[Hair]: Looong wavy blonde/red/brown hair.
[Makeup]: None, ever. I do get my eyelashes and eyebrows tinted though.
[Wishing]: that I knew what to do with my relationship with D.
[After this]: I'm going to take a hot bath and go to bed.
[Talking to]: saeed on YM.
[Eating]: celery and peanutbutter.
[Fetishes]: I like Jewish men who know how to abuse their Hebrew?
[Some of your favorite movies]: City of Lost Children, Amelie.
[Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months]: Going to LA with O.
[The last thing you ate?]: See Above.
[Something that you are deathly afraid of?]: Losing my sisters.
[Do you like candles]: Yes.
[Do you like incense]: Sometimes.
[Do you like the taste of blood]: That's disgusting.
[Do you believe in love]: Yes.
[Do you believe in soul mates]: No.
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: Yes
[Do you believe in forgiveness]: Yes, but it doesn't mean that I'm any good at it.
[If you could have any animal for a pet]: Dog! I want a bulldog, a greyhound, and a boston terrier...and a scottish fold (cat). Hell, they're already named...Voltaire, Nelson, Bartelby, and Lazarus.
[What are 3 states you wouldn't mind relocating to?]: Oregon, Washington DC/Maryland, New York.
[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]: Del Taco Bean and Cheese Burrittos.
[what's something/one you wish you could understand better?]: Myself.
[Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?]:Bob, a friend who went to Westpoint and got married...we used to be good friends but once he got hitched he stopped talking to me. I'd like to know how he is.
[What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow?]: I want to register for my Soc summer school course.