Jan. 26th, 2006
For Jane:With All the Love I Had, Which Was Not Enough:-Charles Bukowski
I pick up the skirt,
I pick up the sparkling beads
in black,
this thing that moved once
around flesh,
and I call God a liar,
I say anything that moved
like that
or knew
my name
could never die
in the common verity of dying,
and I pick
up her lovely
dress,
all her loveliness gone,
and I speak to all the gods,
Jewish gods, Christ-gods,
chips of blinking things,
idols, pills, bread,
fathoms, risks,
knowledgeable surrender,
rats in the gravy of 2 gone quite mad
without a chance,
hummingbird knowledge, hummingbird chance,
I lean upon this,
I lean on all of this
and I know:
her dress upon my arm:
but
they will not
give her back to me.
I pick up the skirt,
I pick up the sparkling beads
in black,
this thing that moved once
around flesh,
and I call God a liar,
I say anything that moved
like that
or knew
my name
could never die
in the common verity of dying,
and I pick
up her lovely
dress,
all her loveliness gone,
and I speak to all the gods,
Jewish gods, Christ-gods,
chips of blinking things,
idols, pills, bread,
fathoms, risks,
knowledgeable surrender,
rats in the gravy of 2 gone quite mad
without a chance,
hummingbird knowledge, hummingbird chance,
I lean upon this,
I lean on all of this
and I know:
her dress upon my arm:
but
they will not
give her back to me.
A very good day.
Jan. 26th, 2006 10:28 pmSave for work and all that tedium.
I...
Packed for Los Angeles.
Did my homework (where's my fucking cookie?).
Met up with the biker and had a nice chat. All parties feel good about things. There were hugs to be had and genuine wishes for luck and happiness. It doesn't get much better than that.
Talked to a new friend in Portland.
Talked to an old friend in DC.
Reconnected with an old acquaintance in San Francisco.
Sushi-whored it.
Found about the next great thing:Idiotarod, because Bay to Breakers is only once a year.
Made dangerous treats.
I'm feeling entirely satisfied with myself. Go ahead, wipe that smile off my face...:p
I...
Packed for Los Angeles.
Did my homework (where's my fucking cookie?).
Met up with the biker and had a nice chat. All parties feel good about things. There were hugs to be had and genuine wishes for luck and happiness. It doesn't get much better than that.
Talked to a new friend in Portland.
Talked to an old friend in DC.
Reconnected with an old acquaintance in San Francisco.
Sushi-whored it.
Found about the next great thing:Idiotarod, because Bay to Breakers is only once a year.
Made dangerous treats.
I'm feeling entirely satisfied with myself. Go ahead, wipe that smile off my face...:p