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Started crying in the shower for no reason in particular. I was just sitting in the bath plucking the what-if's out of the air--nothing sad, just contemplating the things that might have been. So many choices and so many turns, it's a wonder how we wind up where we are. It seems like there are fewer choices these days, but that's an illusion and I know it. Inertia. It can throw you entirely.