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Jun. 16th, 2003 12:37 amWhat a weekend.
Saturday morning I got up early (for me) and washed my dishes, shredded the HUGE pile of junk mail that's been sitting in the corner of my apartment, and went over my bills.
*sighs*
For starters I am BROKE. I finally gathered up the courage to confront my finances and realized that not only am I broke/busted/po' in the larger sense, I won't have enough money to pay all my bills this month. It's my own damned fault, but it's frustrating all the same. D offered to give me some money to help tide me over, but I'm loathe to accept it. I've never borrowed money from a friend and certainly never a lover and it's not a habit I want to start--I told him this much. He told me that I helped him out in a bad situation and all he was doing was extending the same courtesy to me. I might take him up on it, but *urgh* I wish that it weren't the case.
And oh yes, he and I had a big talk about what happened. He explained to me his reasons for reacting the way he did (being insanely literal and following what he perceived to be a logical conclusion to the death). I told him he had been an insensitive asshole and that his explanation didn't cut it. He then teared up and asked me how I would feel if he came over and told me that our relationship was over because of one disastrous misunderstanding. I softened. We then had an long discussion about the viability of our relationship and concluded, as we so often do, that it was better to wait to decide.
*sigh*
He and I spent Saturday night together volunteering for the Mumbo Gumbo Benefit for Hands Across the World/ Central America and Haiti. It was a lovely night on the cheap (free concert to watch while we were selling tickets) and we got to contribute in some way to a good cause.
Today I went by O's after work. She's on a Feng Shui kick and was getting rid of clothes, books, cds, tapes, and records. When I left her house I was staggering past the threshold with at least 20 cds and a new sweater. She's definitely trying to get some momentum going in her life, I wonder if I shouldn't follow her lead. Anyways, it was terribly kind and now I finally have Hooverphonic and every Susan Vega Cd ever made...not to mention a load of Ani Di Franco and a great Yo La Tengo cd. Whoo hoo!
20 cds and a free concert...and I haven't spent a dime. This weekend the whole broker than broke thing really worked out for me. :)
Anyways, not really into writing tonight, just thought I'd update. Hope you are all well.
Saturday morning I got up early (for me) and washed my dishes, shredded the HUGE pile of junk mail that's been sitting in the corner of my apartment, and went over my bills.
*sighs*
For starters I am BROKE. I finally gathered up the courage to confront my finances and realized that not only am I broke/busted/po' in the larger sense, I won't have enough money to pay all my bills this month. It's my own damned fault, but it's frustrating all the same. D offered to give me some money to help tide me over, but I'm loathe to accept it. I've never borrowed money from a friend and certainly never a lover and it's not a habit I want to start--I told him this much. He told me that I helped him out in a bad situation and all he was doing was extending the same courtesy to me. I might take him up on it, but *urgh* I wish that it weren't the case.
And oh yes, he and I had a big talk about what happened. He explained to me his reasons for reacting the way he did (being insanely literal and following what he perceived to be a logical conclusion to the death). I told him he had been an insensitive asshole and that his explanation didn't cut it. He then teared up and asked me how I would feel if he came over and told me that our relationship was over because of one disastrous misunderstanding. I softened. We then had an long discussion about the viability of our relationship and concluded, as we so often do, that it was better to wait to decide.
*sigh*
He and I spent Saturday night together volunteering for the Mumbo Gumbo Benefit for Hands Across the World/ Central America and Haiti. It was a lovely night on the cheap (free concert to watch while we were selling tickets) and we got to contribute in some way to a good cause.
Today I went by O's after work. She's on a Feng Shui kick and was getting rid of clothes, books, cds, tapes, and records. When I left her house I was staggering past the threshold with at least 20 cds and a new sweater. She's definitely trying to get some momentum going in her life, I wonder if I shouldn't follow her lead. Anyways, it was terribly kind and now I finally have Hooverphonic and every Susan Vega Cd ever made...not to mention a load of Ani Di Franco and a great Yo La Tengo cd. Whoo hoo!
20 cds and a free concert...and I haven't spent a dime. This weekend the whole broker than broke thing really worked out for me. :)
Anyways, not really into writing tonight, just thought I'd update. Hope you are all well.