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My mother has given me some great advice....this is one of the few occasions I'm opting to use it.
Stress lists...when you're feeling overwhelmed, write down everything that's stressing you out. When you see it on paper, it won't seem so large and looming...it loses its power in becoming a "To-Do" List. This is mine....
STRESS
1. I have two incompletes that require me to write two papers (approximately 16 pages total) that must be completed by next Wednesday. If I don't complete them, my INCs become F's and I won't get a Sociology minor with my degree.
2. I'm two months late on many of my bills. The major ones are paid (rent, student loans, utilities, gym, insurance) but the credit card late fees will be staggering.
3. My apartment is a pit...a genuine nasty disgusting messy place to be. I need to clean it up. The state of the apartment greatly contributes to stress item #3 (can't find the bills).
4. I need to sell my car--pronto. Once I do that I can stop paying insurance on both cars and I can give my mother the $$$ I owe her.
5. My brother's wedding is coming up and as shallow as it sounds, I'm loathe to go back home fat, ugly, and working two low-wage jobs.
6. Dan is living with me (and has been since the end of April). We are back together, temporarily and have been since the middle of March. The experience of the past month has been mixed...there's been a lot of sex and a lot of fighting. The sum total? No matter how pleasant things can be between us, I just don't trust him anymore. He's moving into his new place on the first. When he leaves I know that we should break up...I'm dreading this but I know it's for the best. Both his presence and his anticipated absence leave me troubled.
7. The job with the publisher is not going well, I want to quit but I can't afford to.
8. I chipped my front tooth and my dental insurance has been cancelled (by said publisher without notifying me first). I can't afford not to fix it but.....
9. I need to find a new job (nay, a career) that will challenge me, pay well, and provide FULL benefits.
10. I fear that if all of these troubles were to melt away, if everything in my life were to suddenly fall into place that I would still be left with an existential crisis. Financial security, a happy love life, and a good job get you accolades, not understanding. All my efforts are towards organizing my life, but at the end of it, I'm not sure that it will have any more meaning than when I started. I worry that I will die an organized, productive, good citizen and nothing more--a mortgaged soul. This frightens me most.
And that is my stress list.
'Night all.
Stress lists...when you're feeling overwhelmed, write down everything that's stressing you out. When you see it on paper, it won't seem so large and looming...it loses its power in becoming a "To-Do" List. This is mine....
STRESS
1. I have two incompletes that require me to write two papers (approximately 16 pages total) that must be completed by next Wednesday. If I don't complete them, my INCs become F's and I won't get a Sociology minor with my degree.
2. I'm two months late on many of my bills. The major ones are paid (rent, student loans, utilities, gym, insurance) but the credit card late fees will be staggering.
3. My apartment is a pit...a genuine nasty disgusting messy place to be. I need to clean it up. The state of the apartment greatly contributes to stress item #3 (can't find the bills).
4. I need to sell my car--pronto. Once I do that I can stop paying insurance on both cars and I can give my mother the $$$ I owe her.
5. My brother's wedding is coming up and as shallow as it sounds, I'm loathe to go back home fat, ugly, and working two low-wage jobs.
6. Dan is living with me (and has been since the end of April). We are back together, temporarily and have been since the middle of March. The experience of the past month has been mixed...there's been a lot of sex and a lot of fighting. The sum total? No matter how pleasant things can be between us, I just don't trust him anymore. He's moving into his new place on the first. When he leaves I know that we should break up...I'm dreading this but I know it's for the best. Both his presence and his anticipated absence leave me troubled.
7. The job with the publisher is not going well, I want to quit but I can't afford to.
8. I chipped my front tooth and my dental insurance has been cancelled (by said publisher without notifying me first). I can't afford not to fix it but.....
9. I need to find a new job (nay, a career) that will challenge me, pay well, and provide FULL benefits.
10. I fear that if all of these troubles were to melt away, if everything in my life were to suddenly fall into place that I would still be left with an existential crisis. Financial security, a happy love life, and a good job get you accolades, not understanding. All my efforts are towards organizing my life, but at the end of it, I'm not sure that it will have any more meaning than when I started. I worry that I will die an organized, productive, good citizen and nothing more--a mortgaged soul. This frightens me most.
And that is my stress list.
'Night all.
