So this is what it feels like...

Got another rejection letter from the Capitol. I wasn't a surprise but all the same, *shrugs* it wasn't what I needed to come home to today.

I'm starting to think that the economy is never going to get better... I'll be working my two shit jobs until I run myself into the ground. And remain in debt. And George Fucking Bush will probably hold a second term. And none of this can end well.
Mark my words, the whole world is going to shit.

Tonight I'm lonely and a little sad. It's new and strange emotion, this "loneliness." I guess I've been blessed or distracted, because I've only had to deal with this feeling a handful of times. Tonight is one of those times. Specifically I'm missing him. I'm sad we're over. I'm sad that my body is the only one in the bed, there isn't much warmth in a place where there used to be two. It's cold, I'm cold and winter seems never ending.
I'm actively working on getting better, but tonight is just one of those nights when I wish I still had him in my life.

But I won't call him and I won't cry. I'll just pull the blankets around me a little tighter and hope for better things.